The Devastating Effects of a Husband Addicted to Porn

The realization is like a slap in the face. You feel humiliated. You’re embarrassed. You can’t believe this is happening to you and your husband.

Over the past few months, you have had a sneaking suspicion that your husband not only watches porn but is addicted. And now that stark reality is staring at you, mocking you. You just walked into his office unexpectedly and saw what he was watching. He slammed the laptop lid closed, blushed, and made a feeble excuse, saying a friend sent him a raunchy video. He apologizes that you had to see that and tries to play it off as a one-time thing.

But you know the truth. And now you can’t deny the truth any longer. All the signs that you didn’t want to see point to the fact that you have a husband addicted to porn.

You’ve seen his personality change over the past few months. He’s more secretive, especially on his phone and computer. You’ve even checked the computer history, but it’s been wiped clean. So you know something is amiss. You’ve seen strange charges on the credit card, but he dismisses your concerns.

He isn’t the same loving man in the bedroom. He seems distant. And sometimes he barely looks at you. What used to be a beautiful act of love now seems utilitarian. He has even expressed a sudden interest in some strange desires.

Furthermore, he has become critical of your appearance. Nothing you do or say is “right.” He is very irritable and just doesn’t seem happy with you. You are increasingly finding that you two just don’t connect anymore—in or out of the bedroom. The tender man you married seems to be shrouded in darkness.

You feel helpless. And somewhat hopeless. You think to yourself: This is something that happens to “other” people, not me.

You don’t know where to turn, and you’re too embarrassed to ask friends or family for help. So you look up some information online. You need to get a handle on your next steps. And what you find is more than troubling.

The Disturbing Stats

Pornography is pernicious and everywhere. Four of the top 25 websites in the world are adult sites. Pornhub is one of them, and it currently ranks at 16. According to its 2019 year in review, there were 42 billion visits to Pornhub just that year. Yes, billion.

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That same year, there were 115 million visits per day. In fact, there were so many videos added to Pornhub in 2019 that, according to Fight the New Drug—a website geared to help fight porn addiction—”if you started watching 2019’s new videos in 1850, you would still be watching them today.”

Fight the New Drug also states: “More than 5,824,699,200 hours of porn were watched on [Pornhub] in just 2019. That’s equal to almost 665 centuries of content consumed in 1 year, on just one porn site.”

That’s a staggering number of videos. It’s no wonder people find pornography addictive.

Porn addiction hurts others as much as the one who watches it. But its insidiousness starts with the addict. And yes, porn can change the way your brain processes stimuli. According to the USCCB:

Our brains become attached to viewing pornography because sexual arousal stimulates dopamine in the brain, a neurochemical that promotes connection with activities that bring us joy or a sense of satisfaction. In the case of viewing pornography, we are training our brains to respond to and enjoy an image or fantasy, not a real person. But since the brain does not differentiate between imaginary and real, it is flooded with the same neurochemicals as produced by real sexual intimacy.

The person who has become addicted to porn no longer has the same desires for the real partner in his life. Reality and fantasy blur together, and reality doesn’t seem as fun or interesting. In fact, oftentimes he does not even want the real people in his life. He wants the airbrushed and fake people in contrived situations.

But porn doesn’t just hurt your husband.

His Behavior Hurts You

As a spouse, you begin to feel rejected, betrayed, abandoned, and maybe even depressed. You are likely to also feel angry and humiliated. You may even feel like there’s something wrong with you.

That’s why, even though it might seem tempting, you must be careful not to blame yourself. This is not your fault. It is his problem, and he must own it and take steps to change. Yes, you can help. But many women erroneously think that they have to compete with the porn stars and look more like them. They tell themselves that if they just lose weight, change their hairstyle, have sex more regularly, or dress in a sexier fashion that he won’t “need” to watch porn any longer. But that’s not really getting to the heart of your husband’s problem. Only counseling and honest discussions can help him on his road to recovery.

Further, it’s important to remember that you are not alone. Those who have lived with a husband addicted to porn understand how you are feeling. A woman who wishes to remain anonymous writes about her experiences. She states:

I knew no matter how good I looked, I could not measure up to the way women looked or behaved in porn. No matter how illogical this is to women, it will still ignite a feeling of worthlessness.

The husband, feeling defensive, may pile on and say he began the addiction just after she had children, or when she couldn’t lose the last 20 pounds, or that time she was recovering from illness and they weren’t intimate. She’ll continue to feel insecurity, shame, disgust, and despair about herself while also feeling angry with and betrayed by him, particularly if she was a willing sexual partner.

If she does not receive therapy or treatment during this time, and his addiction continues, she may begin withdrawing entirely, sinking into despair, overeating or undereating, continuing to emotionally detach, or conversely, looking for affection, affirmation, or even intimacy outside the marriage.

Another woman whose husband overcame his porn addiction advises: “It is also important not to take your husband’s problems upon yourself. This is difficult when the marriage is painful, bills are not being paid, and chaos is everywhere. You are not responsible for his behavior—good or bad.”

As you ponder all this, keep in mind that your husband is the one who must take steps to overcome this addiction and change his life. And these changes are necessary because it’s not just you and your husband who are hurting.

His Behavior Hurts the Kids

Sometimes, when spouses focus so much on one adult’s problems, they forget that these problems damage the children as well—even if the children don’t know what’s going on.

Kids have amazing intuition. They can sense when something is wrong within a marriage even if no one says anything. They can feel the tension and sense changes in their parents’ moods and subtle behaviors.

And a father who is spending increasing amounts of time in front of his computer or locked away in a home office begins to neglect his children. He will likely be irritable and distant from the kids as well as his wife. So even though your kids don’t know specifically what is wrong, and even if they can’t quite put words to the problem, they know things aren’t right.

According to research, many of these kids:

• Have trouble adapting emotionally and feel alone, anxious, depressed, and stressed.
• Isolate themselves to escape negativity.
• Develop a preoccupation with their private life which challenges their ability to focus on things like schoolwork, extracurricular activities, relationships, and even basic cognition.
• Develop a negative relationship to the parent they see as the threat to the other parent.

Now that you have admitted the reality of addiction, and you see how it affects the entire household, what do you do?

Dealing with a Husband Addicted to Porn

First, it’s important to sit down with your husband and have a truthful and candid conversation about your concerns and suspicions. Approach him with love, even if you don’t currently like him. Explain the hurt you’re feeling, and that you feel betrayed. Do not attack or shame him, but stress that his behavior has consequences and hurts his family.

Express your love and concern for him. Many men think that their wives will feel such disgust that they stop loving them. And while this may be true, it doesn’t have to be the case with you. Understand that it takes two to heal the marriage. Make it clear that you will help him, but also make it very clear that you will not tolerate him watching porn.

Tell him that you want to support him as he works to overcome this addiction. And then seek professional help. Many counseling services have both online and in-person groups that meet and that help both the husband and wife.

It’s important that you seek counseling as well. A mixture of individual and couple’s counseling will be extremely beneficial as you try to heal and help your husband overcome the addiction.

Work Together

Marriage.com understands the reality of sharing life with a spouse addicted to porn. But it stresses that together, you can overcome the addiction and actually strengthen your marriage.

It gives some concrete suggestions for ways to help your husband combat his porn addiction and what you should expect as you walk this journey together.

First, understand that there is no easy fix. It will be a long road, with many bumps, and even some setbacks. Being mentally prepared for that will help you get through the times when it’s more difficult or if you seem to be treading water. Help him understand that this journey is his but that you are there to support him.

Learn all you can about the addiction and what has worked for other people. Join a support group.

One of the most important things you can do together is to get rid of things that trigger his desire for porn. Have frank discussions about what makes him have those urges and then work together to eliminate them.

It’s also important to do fun activities as a couple to regain the closeness you have lost. Find things you both enjoy that will give you time together outside the house. Go hiking, bowling, golfing, or even mini golfing! The point is to introduce activities that aren’t sexual in nature that give you both enjoyment as you begin to reconnect and rebuild the bonds of marriage.

Final Thoughts

Counseling will help you work toward healing and forgiveness. But in addition to counseling, it’s important to work with your husband to strengthen your faith life as well.

Pray together. Go to Mass together. Encourage him to go to confession. Talk with other Catholic couples who have walked this journey together. Or begin a Catholic program geared toward healing.

Overcoming addiction can be a long road, and it may not be easy, but healing is attainable if you both want it and work toward it.

Let that healing start with forgiveness.